Immediately upon hearing her words, tears welled up in my eyes and frustration and anger burned within my heart.
I miss the next part of the conversation because I’m looking up to the sky asking God…”really??? you WERE supposed to reveal to the doctors what is going on and you don’t? really??”
She stops speaking. She said, Ms. Wikle did you hear me? Megan’s CT Scan was normal except for a small twist in her intestines.
I told her I understood her, but didn’t understand what could be causing all of this.
It’s a process she said.
I shake my head and by now, tears are streaming down my cheeks. My heart hurts for my daughter. She has endured so much and is just now 18. This last year alone has been filled with test after test only to hear “everything is normal.” First her stomach was paralyzed and then 3 years later, something DIFFERENT is causing her food not to stay down but NO one knows what it is…. Really??
Frustrated I ask what next. 2 more test are ordered. One of which was done almost exactly a year ago.
We are journaling what will stay down. 2 teaspoons of grits, 4 spoons of mashed potatoes. 4 oz of applesauce or yogurt, 1 spoon of scrambled eggs with the hopes that it can help them to see or think of what could be going on.
Really – is this the life she is destined to live?
I don’t understand, I don’t know what God wants us to see. My heart is filled with what Lord, what do you want?
After much prayer and saturating my heart with verse after verse, I realize I may never know, I realize thing may or may not change and she may never eat more than that. I know God is faithful and only God’s grace will get us through.
We are facing the impossible.
For comfort, I search the scriptures for those who faced the impossible.
- Children of Israel – faced death by Pharaoh’s army or death in the Red Sea – impossible….but God stepped in and brought them safely to the other side of the sea.
- Esther and her entire race of people faced death and their fate was sealed by the King – impossible….but God stepped in and prepared the way for them to defend themselves.
- Elijah stood alone and faced hundreds of false prophets – impossible….but God was on his side and that was all he needed.
- Daniel faced hungry lions because of his faithfulness to pray – impossible….but God shut the lion’s mouths and gave Daniel the peace that only God can pour out.
- The 3 Hebrew Children were tossed into the fiery furnace that was so hot, the guy that opened the door was burned to death – impossible….but God walked in the fire WITH them.
- Sarah longed for a son and God had promised her and Abraham that their seed would exceed the grains of sand and stars in the sky and now she was past child bearing years – impossible….but God gave her a son and kept His promise
- Abraham was asked to make a sacrifice – of his one and only son – impossible….but God supplied a lamb upon seeing that Abraham was willing to offer up his son as the Lord had asked.
Impossible……
With God all things are possible:
Philippians 4:13 – I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me
Jeremiah 32:27 – Behold, I am the LORD, the God of all flesh: is there any thing too hard for me?
Genesis 18:14 Is any thing too hard for the LORD?
How long will this continue? I don’t know. Will more tears fall? Yes – until she is healed, fixed or whatever needs to be done for her to consume a normal meal.
Do I trust God with her? yes…completely. It’s all I got and thankfully it’s all I need.
Will I cry out in frustration, anger and ask why? Probably. I’m a mom and we hate to see our children suffer.
I will continue to pray, to saturate our family in prayer and trust the Lord as HE can bring us through the impossible.
Will you pray with us? Will you trust God through the impossible with us?
I can only imagine the ministry that He has prepared for Megan as a young lady. I pray daily that God will give her the strength to continue on this journey so that God can get all the glory.
I know God will use this and HER in a mighty way.
We will face the impossible….but we are not facing it alone.
Thank you Lord for the mercy and grace you pour out. I trust you with my family. Strengthen our faith and love as we walk this journey together. in Jesus name I ask…amen.
**update:
One of the test that was done on Megan opened up a kink in her lower intestines that allowed her to start eating again.
Thank you soooo much for praying with us! For standing with us! and for how you have encouraged us through this crazy journey! YOU MATTER!
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Heavenly Father, I lift up m Sister Marie, her Daughter Megan and the whole Family, you are the ultimate Doctor, and we come to you humbly asking that you would heal Megan, we pray that you would bless the whole Wikle Family and may you turn the tears of despair into tears of JOY as you do not waste a hurt, may this come to an end,may Megan be able to keep her food down and be nourished, may your hand guide any and all of the Doctors, Nurses and those involved with the process of her healing. Father in your word in Matthew 7: 7-8 you tell us that if we ask it will be given to us, I pray Lord that you would restore Megan and I pray that this condition will cease and that Megan and Marie will be able to Glorify your name because of what you have done, give us strength allow us to lean on you during these trying times, and Heavenly Father, by the shed Blood of Jesus I command that the evil one would flee from this situation and have no foothold on any of this family’s ministry, I pray that all of this will bring people to the saving grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, I pray this in the most precious and Holy name of Jesus, Amen
Mirv Wondracek recently posted..Facing the Impossible
Sometimes as moms…it becomes even more difficult to understand what GOD is doing as a FATHER. There are even times when we find ourselves teetering on the verge, wondering how HE could possibly love them more than we do…and yet allow them to go through whatever they are having to endure. But HE does…
Trusting, believing, and waiting on HIS touch…alongside you in heart and prayer.
xoxo
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I had this very moment today, as my mom is at the hospital as I write. I cried, I got angry. I asked why? Nevertheless, we both know God as a healer, a deliverer, a comforter, and merciful. As you said, there is nohing too hard for our God. This is a demonic attack both on Megan and my mom. But God has given us power of the devil. I bind these attacks on both of them in Jesus name.
We had out moment, time to tell the devil to flee in Jesus name! And thanks for this post sis!
I’m speechless. I know you’ve held on to hope, praying for answers and seeking solutions. I know you have hit solid doors without answers. And I’m certain you’ve spent more than enough money on medical bills while giving up other things. Yet I also know that no problem is without the Presence of God. Seek Him for comfort. Seek Him for strength. Seek Him for peace and healing. Megan is His daughter too. You are both loved.
{{{HUGS}}}
@Christine – – Thank you Christine! I keep reminding myself of that – Megan is HIS daughter too.
@Evie – – – Evie – I’m sooo sorry your mom is having issues again! You guys will continue to be in my prayers. Like you – I’m sooo thankful God is our comfort and pours out His mercy!
@Marlo – – Thank you so much for your kind words of encouragement and especially the prayers! You’ve always been such a blessing!
Hopefully things will calm down for both of us and we’ll get together soon!
@Mirv — – Such a beautiful prayer!! Thank you so much! I know that God will reveal Himself in all of this.
@Mike C – Thank you Mike! You are such a blessing!
{{HUGS}} to you all!!
Marie recently posted..Because of YOU
I think you hit the nail on the head in one of your responses when you said, “as moms, it’s often difficult to see what God is doing as their heavenly Father-” As I’ve grown up as a parent (7 children) I find my mother’s heart is to protect my children from all harm and trial- (something that God has used to refine & make me more like Him) I remind myself constantly, that though I don’t like going through the “fire”, His loving hand has brought me through and I was not destroyed- but made stronger. I need my mother’s heart to get a glimpse of the glorious “making” He’s doing in our children through this earth journey. Hugs
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My heart goes out to you Marie. Facing the unknown is a difficult struggle indeed.
Please know that you, Megan and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
I’ve posted a bit more via Twitter DM.
– Tara/@JesusSister
Your struggle is a painful one,Marie. My heart goes out to you. As parents, we seek to protect our children from harm and keep them safe. It breaks our hearts to see them suffer. Likewise, the Father’s heart of love and compassion breaks with us. He holds them and us in the safety of His embrace as we lean into Him with our confusion, hurt and sorrow.
Joining you in prayer and support as you wait upon the Lord to heal and deliver in his way and timing. May you sense His arms around you as you experience the peace which only He can give.
Love and prayers *hugs* xxx
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@JOY thank you! I can’t imagine trying to do anything without the Lord. thank you for praying and for how you encourage!
@Tara – thank you so much for the kindness you always always give! you bless me and i’m thankful for you!
@Cindy – its one of the hardest things i’ve ever endured. while i know its about her growth and journey and her becoming even better, its soooo hard. you are correct – HE IS making something glorious and I can’t wait to see it.
thanks yall – you bless me more than you’ll ever know!
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May the Lord answer you in the day of trouble;may the name of the God of Jacob defend you;may He send you help from the sanctuary,and strengthen you out of Zion.
May He remember all your offerings and accept your sacrifice.May He grant you according to your heart’s desire and fulfill all your purpose.
We will rejoice in your salvation and in the name of our God, we will set up our banners!May the Lord fulfill all your petitions.
Now I know that the Lord saves His anointed.He will answer her from His holy heaven with the saving strength of His right hand.Some trust in chariots,and some in horses;but we will remember the name of the Lord our God.They have bowed down and fallen but we have risen and stand upright.Save Lord!May the King answer us when we call.
Thank you Anita!
You and so many others are so encouraging! The prayers are priceless to me and I’m honored and blessed that you’d take time to boldly go before the Throne of Grace for us!!
Thank you for the JOY you have brought my way!!
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I can’t for that day when this story will take that amazing turn.In God we trust.Cheers!!!!!!
Megan had an appt yesterday
The dr now thinks that the small kink in her intestines is what is causing all of this. he explained the kink to be like an antenna where part of the intestine has forced its way into another part of the intestine… which is why she experiences sever pain 90% of the time.
They are going to call and set up a barium swallow test – which will show the exact location and size of the kink as he feels surgery is the only fix.
He is going to be consulting a surgeon and set up a time for us to meet with him. when HE consults with the surgeon, he will take the time to go over every test and see if there is anything he missed.
So, that is where we stand right now.
Thank you for being a prayerful part of her world.
Did they suggest Diphenhydramine to calm the hyper contractions?
I continue to pray that this too will be resolved, and though the evil one tries to get us down any opportunity he gets, we know that God can and will turn this int being able to Glorify Him for he does not abandon his own, be strong and know that God has you and Megan in the hallow of His hand. This is probably the best news so far
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just home from meeting with a surgeon – they still have no idea. what they thought could have been her problem in her intestines is not.
surgeon thinks her stomach is “over acting” and constantly contracting – making the food come back. which is a complete turn around from her paralyzed stomach in 2009.
he is going to collaborate with her dr and maybe prescribe some kind of “blocker” that is essentially a high blood pressure pill to “calm” her stomach down.
please pray for her – for courage to continue to walk this journey. she will be leaving for bible college in august – some 800 miles away – i know God loves her more than me and HE HAS her….
thank you for your continued prayers. i know billions of prayers on her behalf have been prayed. thank you.
love and forever grateful
@spreadingJOY
Marie, I’m standing with you & Megan,your whole family in Jesus Name for His Peace that surpasses all understanding establishing you & keeping you supernaturally in confident expectation of the Impossible achieved through Jesus, Amen. Pastor Paul 🙂 Father,refresh the whole family in Jesus Name, give Megan, Elijah’s “fist cloud” the spiritual “Key” to unlock this condition, send her Your Word in Jesus Name and we give You thanks for the unveiling of the spiritual “Key” to resolve all and Father thanks for all You’ve done and are doing for Megan & family in Jesus Name,Amen. Marie be strong and of good courage for your reward is sure in Jesus Name 🙂
I am so sorry you difficult time continues Marie! I can’t imagine watching my child endure what Megan is. Praying for healing and answers, strength and endurance.
Hi Marie… You and the family continue in my prayers. I pray that the Lord will guard your hearts, wash you in His comfort and open the paths of healing peace for you. Some verses I love…
“God gathers His lambs into His arms and carries them close to His heart.” ~ Is 40:11
“… those who hope in the Lord will not be disappointed.” ~ Is 49:23d
‘ask where the good way is and walk in it, and you will find rest for your souls’ ~ Jeremiah 6:16b.
Keep up the fantastic faith because we both know ‘the impossible is available to those who rely on the eternal.”
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Megan has an appointment with the Mayo Clinic in Jacksonville FL. praying for answers for healing.
thank you @Pastor_Paul, @John and @Geoff – your prayers are such a gift – along with your friendship. I’m blessed to have you standing with me and my family for her.
all the hearts and lives she touches in Christ’s name will be in thanks to you and the millions of other prayers prayed on her behalf.
i’m sooo blessed to have friends like you
Hello all 🙂
I can encourage you, God is with you even when you don’t see any Progress.
I were sick my entire life. Often we didn’t see any Progress. Doctors told us things that was unbearable. But God was always there. In the worst pain-moments. NEVER GIVE UP. God has a plan – thats for sure.
A few years ago that all changed. I gave God my entire life and he healed me. He saved me. I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for him. Trust him. He will make all things work together for your good.
God bless you all,
MD
As a mom, it is sooooooooooooo difficult to watch your children suffer. My daughter had a disease in her ear, before they finally diagnosed it right, she had three surgeries. I kept asking God Why? Why can’t it just get fixed, healed, why does she has to suffer? It stretched my heart beyond what my faith could endure, but I chose to “grow through”, to trust… then came the 4th surgery. The doctor said, this surgery will take away her hearing, but it is necessary because the disease has eaten away all the mastoid and she has some ear bone left. They told us they would try to get it all and the surgery would be six hours. I could not let go of the cart as they wheeled her back. She was 11 at that point, her first surgery had been at 4yrs, but this one would take away her hearing, I gripped the cart so tightly and they said, we have to take her back now… you have to let her go. My husband pried my hands off the cart and I sat and prayed and prayed. Two hours into the surgery the surgeon came out and said while he was in the surgery he had an idea of taking the ear bones that were left, the stubbs and turning them, reconstructing them, He asked for permission to do it, we gave it to him because we felt God had answered us to save her hearing, which is exactly what happened. It worked! She had to go through the surgery, but God did a miracle in the surgery. She is tone deaf in one ear, but can hear and she is also a beautiful worship leader at her church, very anointed and very gifted by God. We went through that season of 7 years and all of us grew in our faith. I don’t understand it, why was it necessary to have happened at all, but now with the heavenly hindsight that I have, I can see just how much GLORY it has brought God. I pray He does it again, I pray HE gives that sudden revelation in perfect timing for your daughter.
it’s easier to put the update here – hope you guys don’t mind.
her first mayo appt was great. they did blood work & ultrasound right away. the arteries to her stomach are clear – they wondered if a blockage was keeping her from keeping food down. there are 2 more test scheduled and 3 more dr. visits. all happening on may 6, 7 and 8th. please pray for us as we will leave may 1st for my son’s college graduation. leave from arkansas on may 4th to drive home to nc. on may 5th, we will drive to florida for her visit first thing monday morning. so LOTS of travel in that week.
we are still trusting the Lord – for healing, for using this for His honor and glory and for working personally on our hearts individually and as a family.
i’m honored as people are praying for her – for US from all over the world. from right here in our home town to Ghana, to Australia and everywhere in between.
Thank you! sooo much!
{{HUGS}}
Marie
Marie recently posted..What In the World
Marie,
My dear sweet friend, what a tremendous challenge you have been faced with. How fortunate that our God cannot lie and he has said that he will not give you more than you can handle, that he will never forsake you, that he has plans for you and for Megan that are good and not evil and that he wants her to have a hope and a future! Do not faint! You’re doing awesome! Keep pressing in and planning for her to go to bible college. Don’t let the enemy put a hold on the plans God has for her. She could wake up the first day of school with complete healing. Only he knows the timing of this. But he is so amazing in how he weaves the quilt of pains, joys, and experiences of our lives into something beautiful for others to share. When up close, one can only see the stitches of a quilt and it “ain’t much to look at” but when you step back and view the “Big Picture” it’s phenomenal. May you soon be on the other side of this situation so that you can see how he used Megan to reach others, how he used this to grow both of you, how this test turns into a testimony. God is so good and he works all things for our good and his glory. So I stand with you in agreement. We will speak what is not, as though it is, and it will be. Complete healing. By his stripes. She’s healed… We just need it to manifest physically. May the Father pour into you during these appointments the next few days and may he continue to strengthen you and bring wisdom to the doctors and discernment to you. Do not allow the enemy to plant despair, dismay or doubt… Use selective listening and fill your ears with the Word of God. For you are overcomers and Megan has a bright and full future ahead that God has GREAT plans for! This too shall pass. Do NOT let the enemy get a foothold. Use your authority and kick him in the teeth. Your circumstances are NOT truth… Truth rules over all! God’s word is truth and I so wish I could come give you a hug and speak this to you in person! Keep your head up and keep your eyes on the prize. Jesus wants you looking at him… doctors reports are NOT truth. They are circumstance. She WILL come through this, my friend. And she will be SO VERY STRONG when she does. Be Blessed!!!
I don’t get it.
MRI showed NO abnormalities. Behavioral says not a disorder or psychological. So they are trying to get her in their pain rehab program to teach her how to effectively manage her chronic pain and physical symptoms and issues.
So, must be gastroparesis and I’m not sure if anything else can be done to help her digest solid food.
I know Gods grace will carry her
I know I don’t understand
I know that I just don’t even know what to say or think right now.
God, she is YOUR daughter, YOUR child and the one YOU died for…
We need you
I’m guessing lots of tears will one day bring lots of joy….
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Hi Marie .. very sorry to hear of this merry-go-round-again. I was only reading today again about healing, I really wonder again if this is spiritual problem/attack etc when it can’t be solved in the natural. I shan’t stop the praying Marie until Megan stops feeling the pain..GB you as you bless worldwide.
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hi marie
my prayer’s are with you. i hope the
doctors find out what is wrong with
megan.
i’ve been keeping the prayer group
up to date on megan and they are
praying for you and megan.
hugs bonnie
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i’m sorry that i’ve not updated in a while. life has made some crazy turns….
the testing that was done at the Mayo Clinic seem to clear up the intestinal blockage that could have been causing Megans issues.
while they offered us no answers, for now, she is eating again. it’s just crazy that 2 different “issues” could cause the same horrible effects for one child.
thank you all for praying. thank you all for walking with us
if you have NOT done so – please – JOYn in the conversation and tell your story of facing the impossible and the verses, people and prayers that got you through!
someone out there needs to hear it!
{{HUGS}}
marie recently posted..God Promised
Hi Marie!
Just thought of you and your daughter today and decided to check in on how she is doing, I am so glad to hear she is eating again. Jesus is lord! My prayers are constantly with you, I speak complete restoration and protection around you and your family in the name of Jesus!
Remain blesses
Thank you!!
We are moving her this summer to her college so that she can go ahead and get a job, get established and put back funds for tuition. Amazing, wonderful and scary all at the same time!! Thank you so much for this encouraging email!! Thanks for spreading joy my way!